Monday, November 28, 2022

Written transcript of talk given to Class X students at St. Paul's High School, 28th November, 2022

Good morning. I would like to begin by thanking Mazher Ali Ahmed saab and Brother Sudhakar Reddy for giving me this opportunity to be here, a good 44 years after I left the corridors and grounds of this great school. I never thought I would ever be here to thank the school and the teachers for having made me what I am today. While this is a great honor, it is also a great responsibility and I wonder what I will say this morning that will make a mark on young minds. I must first and foremost say that I am still the child that I was in those formative years as a child. As Picasso said, as a child I used to paint as a grown-up, and as an adult I have tried all my life to paint like a child. It is a child that is imbued with curiosity about the world, and is filled with a wonder and an urge to know what is what. Every color, every sound, every smell is new and wondrous. To a child every adult is a repository of knowledge, or experience and of learning. In the field in which I work, it turns out that every stage one relives the experience of the child. To me this is the greatest aspect of being in the field of research and science about which I have been charged with the responsibility to speak to you about. In the era of YouTube (the CEO of which Susan Wojicki by the way is the daughter of a particle physicist Stanley) and of TedX talks, what is one more talk? Why one more? Why here? Mazher Ahmed saab asked me if I would need some projection facilities and declined. I learnt from Patrick Winston a professor from MIT who gave several talks on how to give talks has emphasized, and ever since I first heard him, it became obvious that we have only one language processor. If you are seeing and reading something, you do not hear the speaker, and vice versa. That is why today I decided that if I am to make a mark on you, it is only through the auditory channel. Of course you will watch me and my every gesture and every nuance, and I hope that you will take something away, indeed as I did of my famous teachers in the school and I should name Rasool Sir, Krishnamurthy Sir, Irene teacher, Sakina teacher to name a few. My visual impressions are the strongest, and I can even see my mother talking to Brother Stanislaus about 50 years ago.

A friend of mine who works in the publishing industry in Delhi told me that Indian students like to read even technical books written by Indian authors. This struck me as something unusual, or something that I had not thought of. I think she meant that the way in which the turn of phrase takes place, or the way and example is brought out is also culture dependent. I know for a fact that our students like to have many steps worked out, and also like explicit demonstration. Every culture has its own style. For instance American books have a lot of diagrams and drawings, and different sub-topics in boxes. If this is the case for something that is inanimate like a book, then what about a talk? A motivational speech? It is of course an untested hypothesis, but I would imagine that looking at me and hearing me would be qualitatively different from watching a lecture by a famous American or European scientist talking about his or her experiences about a life in science. A lot is said about role models. In the context of role models for women, it is said that you can only be what you can see. Surely this must also be true for regional, national, cultural categories. It is often the case that role models that are presented or held up are remarkable persons, indeed some extraordinarily singular persons like, e.g., Srinivasa Ramanujan, or C V Raman or Satyendra Nath Bose, who are persons from another era, and another time. Others include great institution builders like Homi Bhabha or Vikram Sarabhai, but that was from an era when India was a young country. An individual at the cross-roads of history would make a huge difference. That is also the case for legendary persons such as Richard Feynman or Robert Oppenheimer, who were charismatic and also had their destinies tied up with that of the world itself, having been tempered in the crucible of history. What about the normal and the ordinary? My mission therefore is to offer a few words in this direction as to what a career in science and research and teaching, both of which are inextricably tied up together.

I do not need to offer a definition of science here. We all know what science is. Is the human effort to come to terms with the world around us. To find out the relationship between cause and effect, with rigor and reproducibility at the core and heart of it. It is to find a precise language independent of the era or the place, which is universal. Modern science as we know it probably came into being in the last few centuries. Empirical science is as old as civilization itself, the latter founded on the taming of nature, to find out the pattern to the cycles of nature, to put natural forces to the service of human beings. From the rise and fall of the tides to the prediction of rains or to the annual flooding of the Nile, to the making of Wootz steel and Chola Bronzes, art and civilization have gone hand in hand with science. It is on the one hand a great co-operative effort of civilizations themselves, and that of the individual striving on the other. While there is a dance between the needs and impulses and urges of individuals and the harmonizing of the needs of the general vs. that of the individual, history has marched on.

Today, science is an international enterprise. Large science projects from the human genome project to alpha-fold, or the Large Hadron Collider or the LIGO have teams of hundreds if not thousands of scientists. And yet we do know that ideas from individual trailblazers cannot be under emphasized. How is a young person to prepare and train herself or himself for this noble endeavor? It also has to be kept in mind that science is probably like a marathon to be run like a sprint or sprinting a marathon. There are innumerable pressures of competition and rat-race which is a feature of advanced capitalist society. There is little substitute for hard work and concentration, and persistence and perseverance. The rewards are the joy of discovery, that Eureka moment for which one may have to wait a lifetime. The process of scientific work requires a great deal of knowledge, assimilation, analysis and synthesis. Henri Poincare is said to have spoken of his Eureka moment, and so has Albert Einstein. Psychology of creativity has rested on 4 important milestones of preparation, incubation, illumination and verification, which clearly have nothing to do with a given individual, culture, era or national or any other kind of category.

My purpose in being here is to talk a little about what makes a voyage possible for someone from India and what are the life-experiences. While it is impossible to be anything but anecdotal, it seems to me that the life-forces that shape us are our birth-families and the cultures of the cities and towns in which we are born, about whether or not there is exposure to a culture of science and knowledge, in addition to abilities of individuals, at e.g., problem solving, and whether or not there is access to life-influences like peer groups, the educational institutions to which go, the kinds of teachers we have, the availability of books and libraries. I cannot understate the importance that these have had on my life. In my being here I offer myself as an example of someone who has had a life in science, albeit of a rather esoteric and technical type, where there is little I can share with a non-specialist except to say that my work has used mathematics, field theory, and physical models to try to improve our basic understanding of sub-nuclear phenomena, from the determination of the analog of the electric charge of the strong interactions, the lifetime of certain unstable particles, the search for patterns among the masses of elementary particles, deploying of tools to improve the knowledge of scattering processes, and finally to solve problems of evaluation of integrals that arise in general settings, but also make an appearance in physical problems. Each day that I work in this field I feel that I have learnt a little bit more. Whereas the human experience is often a little frustrating, it can also be elevating. Like it is in every sphere of human life.

What I can say is that even today, I feel like a child in the sense that I feel I still don't know anything and like after every class in school I felt I knew a bit more, I feel that way after every little I effort. Of course, the cycle must go on. We educate others, the way we were educated in this great temple of learning and it is once again an honor for me to be here. I hope that every one of you will take away a little bit and I hope that this half-hour will make a difference to your life. I thank every one of you.

Friday, April 15, 2022

Open Letter to Amy Wax

Dear Prof. Dr. Amy Wax,

I bring your greetings from a shit-hole country. You seem to have had a run-in with some Indian doctors, especially women and brahmin women to boot, who could not live up to their potential in the shit-hole country of their origin. And as a result they are frustrated and come to your country and complain about it. Your frustration at their behaviour is understandable, especially because you are proud of a country with over-sized achievements. More precisely it is not the country per se, but that of white people who founded the country, because your narrative seems to suggest that others who are also citizens of your country such as blacks and Asians, according to you are jealous of the oversized achievements of whites only, and not that of the country. This is also understandable, since your oversized achievements include a lot of activities such as nuclear weapons, of which two were tried out on civilian populations in Japan, and during the war Americans of Japanese origin were interned. Other oversized achievements clearly include your 101st Airborne and the 7th Fleet and the USS George Bush and thousands of war-heads and thousands of non-nuclear warheads such as daisy cutters and other less potent ones such as tomahawks and hundreds of thousands of mines that can be used in maritime warfare. More recently the outsized achievements also include thousands of drones and hundreds of F-16 fighter-craft with which you maintain Pax Americana, except that it is not Pax but more like micro- and medium-sized wars all over the world. Oversized cities like New York used the labour of indigenous Indians who apparently were not afraid of heights. Other shit-hole residents who were rotting in Africa were brought to your land to work on your plantations and your cities. The legend is that they had to be brought in chains. That is not true. It is those who could not be brought on ships who had to be chained in their countries because they were trying to scramble on to the ships that were leaving Dakar for the Americas. Your anguish is understandable. After all your parents or forefathers and members of your community were harassed, persecuted and many of them were exterminated, and it is only America that gave your refuge, and hence your loyalty to its institutions is natural. Your oversized achievements could include investments in eradication of disease and poverty, and in actually bringing genuine peace to the world and create a more humane order. I believe you live in Philadelphia, the city of brotherly love in the Commonwealth of Pennsylvania, named after William Penn and has a certain wonderful natural air to the name, evoking images of forests and springs and rivers and streams. On the very day you described my country as a shit-hole, a disgruntled gentleman attacked harmless passengers in a subway in the Big Apple, aka New York city with canisters of smoke and high powered assault weapons, and it is a wonder that no one died, although half a dozen were critically injured. In a superior culture and country like yours, with oversized achievements (sorry I should emphasize that these are achievements of white people, because you also said that blacks are jealous and bitter about .their not being able to participate in the bountiful oversized table), it is only natural that people should carry oversized arms with oversized ammunition, which are normally tried out on people of inferior cultures such as in Iraq, Afghanistan, including depleted uranium shells and daisy cutters in the Tora Bora caves, but sometimes these things happen. I understand that this time the person of interest, was a black man, although for reasons unknown most shooters happen to be white. This should represent a paradox for your theory because white people are not bitter and jealous. But I should not question too much. Oversized weapons and smoke canisters are good for business. The NRA has often said guns do not kill people, but people kill people. I agree. I am pleased that an Ivy League University of yore has people such as yourselves on their distinguished faculty. It must fill students of colour and of other ethnicities with great confidence because for the first time they have been told in no unclear terms how lucky they are to have been able to flee from their countries of (shit-hole) origin. It seems that this phrase was already used for African countries by one of your former Presidents. I am glad that my country is now included in this. Together, we from India and they from Africa will now unite and together we will deal with our shittiness. I thank you for educating us and we did not even have to pay for it. And before I stop, I would like to suggest for your bed-time reading an article by late President Fidel Castro entitled `the Brain Drain' which is carried on voltairnet.org . It tells you how your oversized achievements have been underwritten by the sweat and blood of tax-payers from shit-hole countries. The best thing I like about Castro was that he when he retired, his brother Raoul took over as President. This meant that crossword clues "Cuban President" did not have to be changed. But I digress. I wish you well and take care and have a nice Easter break.

Regards, A s-h country resident.